Me 2.0

I have a lot on my mind. It is like every corner of the earth has converged and has taken residence in my brain. Sometimes it is a good thing, as I am “good” busy – the kind of busy I have prayed for most of my life – the kind that reminds you how filled life can be. The other is the highly-overworked kind of busy. That will pass, hopefully soon.

So back to my brain. Been thinking a lot the past few weeks. Hoping and praying for some major changes. As I am led, and find direction, I will fill in some of the informational gaps. However, for now, I need to write. I need to be a new and improved version of me.

Life was given to us to live and explore. Time to find my adventure pants.

Sunday Song: November 25, 2012

Isaiah 61:1-3
The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me,because the Lord has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor;he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim liberty to the captives,and the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor,and the day of vengeance of our God;to comfort all who mourn;
to grant to those who mourn in Zion—to give them a beautiful headdress instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness instead of mourning, the garment of praise instead of a faint spirit;
that they may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he may be glorified.

Not going to lie: I can probably count on one, maybe two hands of the really good things that have happened in my life. Most likely one hand.  I have spent the better part of my life mourning some kind of personal hurt, rejection or the loss of some of my physical well-being, if not even my youth.  I can remember feeling a lack of worth from a very young age.

I try to not allow it to get to me. I try to remain positive–that God will use all of it for good. Because as an adult (not so much as a child, and definitely not while I was a backslidden young adult), I have been given the opportunity to see God use a lot of my hurts and past in a fruitful way. For that, I am very grateful.

We all have our personal struggles, but God will see us through.

When people in our lives cause us to believe we are not worthy of their love or of anything use…He says and shows otherwise.

When we mourn the tangible or intangible losses in our lives; when we are at the bottom of our personal pit, God has an answer.

He will turn all of the muck…all of the ashes that lay in heaps at our feet into beauty–whether the beauty be used to bless us or others.

It is because God does those things that I know He is real.

If you push “rewind” on the movie of your life, and you see your present as a resolve of the past…then you will see it, too.

Have a blessed week. :)

Well, hello there. . .

It appears that I haven’t written here for quite a while.  That is a good thing.  Nothing bad has happened; in fact, everything is the best it has ever been.

I have a life, now…a very busy, very full one.  It is a welcome change.

I am going to try to post more, however.  Got a lot on my mind, and I’ve noticed that when I am seeking God and sharing those thoughts, rather than keeping them to myself, I grow.  That, too, is a very good thing.

Hope life is full and good for you, too. :)

Sunday Song

Lamentations 3:19-26
I remember my affliction and my wandering,the bitterness and the gall.
I well remember them,and my soul is downcast within me.
Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:
Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”
The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;
it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

Part of this passage was sent to me this past week, and usually when I read this passage, it comes to mind a few days in a row…lingering like a whispered promise. Well, off and on this week, I have thought about it, and when I decided to use it in my “Sunday song,” I read from the beginning of Chapter 3. I have probably done it before, but to be honest, I can’t remember if I have or not. I have included part of what leads up to the promise of new mercies for each day, from God.

The hope stated by the author of Lamentations is brought forth through hardship and affliction. The ability to say, “Tomorrow will be a new day…a better day, because God created it, and because He is faithful to provide His mercy,” in the face of hardship and affliction, is encouraging to me. While I am not always an outward optimist…always bubbling over with “be happy-isms,”… I am optimistic, because I believe each day is a new day, ripe with hope and mercy from God – a clean slate. At any moment, God could provide astoundingly for the greatest need. On any given day, He could provide a series of seemingly small events that will or could change the course of hardship and affliction (in a good way).

This passage holds so much assurance for me, and reading what led up to the very heartfelt statement about God’s mercies, encourages me even more.

Sunday Song

Ecclesiastes 3:14
I perceived that whatever God does endures forever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it. God has done it, so that people fear before him.

I heard this song earlier in the week. I’ve liked it for a while. I like the truth behind it, that God has the power to take us “into the beautiful.” And for as much as there is so much beauty here to appreciate, is is to just get a taste of the beauty God has in Hands…there is so much more awaiting us all.

Sunday Song

Ecclesiastes 3:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

Psalm 27:4
One thing I ask from the Lord, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.

Psalm 90:17
And let the beauty of the Lord our God be upon us: and establish thou the work of our hands upon us; yea, the work of our hands establish thou it.

There are so many types of beauty. There is the inner-beauty I admire in others, to always love others. I try…but I am human. There is outer-beauty. I try on that one, too. However, I have been learning to accept myself and hope that others do the same.

The beauty of nature is something I don’t think will ever be looked by me with dull eyes. One of my favorite things to do is to imagine how vast God’s power is in light of His creation. There is so much to observe and appreciate.

And everything, even those of use who might not be viewed by everyone as God views us, is still seen by God as His “good” creation and worthy of His love.

I think I will go see if I can view that huge moon up in the sky, tonight, and hope for some stars. I like star-gazing. They were placed there by God…