Romans 14:11
For it is written, “AS I LIVE, SAYS THE LORD, EVERY KNEE SHALL BOW TO ME, AND EVERY TONGUE SHALL GIVE PRAISE TO GOD.”

I was reading the passage that goes with this verse. It is a passage I was led to while I was reading a devotional. The passage states that we live for God, because He died for us. We need to acknowledge our place…let go of the pride, let go of the compass we hold in our hands for our own self-directed paths.

When I get anxious, I do not forget about the Lord, but how often do I acknowledge His power? He has that power for a reason: to bless us, but most importantly, to remind us that no matter what, He is Lord over EVERYTHING–all of the politicians, the bosses, the family members, the world leaders. . .all of it.

Sadly, even though the average person might acknowledge that God exists, God isn’t necessarily real to him or her. There is so much to see and know about Christ…we need to allow Him to be first in everything. Obviously, in our humanness, this is easier said than done, but baby steps forward are better than completely falling backward into nothingness.

SUNDAY SONG

Matthew 21:21-22
Jesus replied, “Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and it will be done.  If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.”

Mark 11:22-24
“Have faith in God,” Jesus answered.  “Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.  Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

Well…I had intended on whining in this post. Nice thing to admit, huh? I am discouraged and disappointed about some things right now…things about myself. Part of it is that I had to quit the trainer. My knee caps were sliding and my shoulder was a mess, and after a while of not going to the gym at all I feel better; however, my clothes are getting really tight, and all of my hard work (and it was hard-fought, diligent work) is disappeaing into a giant blob of yuck.  I am considering throwing caution to the wind and going back to the trainer…hardcore…a month or two at a time to see how things go.

Can’t deny how I feel. Then…there is the addition of all the other stress I keep bringing up on this blog.

But, as I started choosing scripture, today, I ended up choosing what I wasn’t really looking to place with the song I’ve chosen. I am not entirely sure they relate that well, but the verses I chose ended up coming up in my search.

I needed them, today. They reminded me of what I am…a tiny human in the grand scheme of things. I am, however, a tiny human in God’s grand scheme of things. He loves me and cares about every minute detail of my life.

He knows I long to be active, healthy and thin (thin doesn’t necessarily mean healthy, after all). He knows my desire for relationships, family and love.  God knows I sincerely long for time that I don’t have to spend with others, helping others and for self-reflection and the studying of His Word…and prayer.

He especially knows that I struggle with believing that I am worthy of any of it.

The wonderful thing about all of it, though, is that God tells me I can ask Him to move mountains, move the relative earth with a bulldozer to create a path for the changes in my life I desire. He will move mountains. He will create opportunities when there seem to be none.  My Heavenly Father is able…to…do…anything…and…everything.

God is who He says he is…and nothing can top His power, His love or His provision.

just yammerin’

I have been wrapping up things at work to end the marking period. I usually get really stressed and loopy around this time: ending one marking period, beginning another, plus the planning, plus immediate grading, plus written and objective test mid-terms, and I am getting a student teacher ready to take over my classes ….which eats away my prep periods.

So, after school, today, I was finishing up essays, and I became so frustrated. I know the time I put into planning, teaching and properly assessing the skills of my kids…they work hard, too. However, I feel like there is a disconnect when I see the product of their efforts.

As I am sitting here winding down, I am thinking : how often does God invest His time and effort ….even the blood and sacrifice of His son, only to have me “perform” as if I have never been instructed. Just as I try to give my students the tools for success, God does the same for us. I am grateful that because of His grace, we do not receive a grade.

Sunday Song

Psalm 37:7-9
Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices!
Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath!
Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil.
For the evildoers shall be cut off, but those who wait for the LORD shall inherit the land.

Psalm 46:10
“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”

Exodus 14:14
The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.”

I was looking for songs for this Sunday, and I wasn’t really sure what to pick.

Usually, I’ll hear a song during the week that gives me some inspiration, but this wasn’t one of those weeks.

There were times this week that I felt a bit of anxiousness; however, whenever it got bad, I felt a wave of peace. I’ve experienced it before, but I can’t really explain it. It is like a switch is turned off and everything calms.

Being still was something I had to put into practice, but God’s peace enabled it.

So…this song seems to fit my week.

I hope your week reminded you of how God is present in our anxiousness, and that He is faithful to provide His peace…after all, He does want us to “be still,” so that we can focus on Him and know He is at work.

P.S.
If you all could pray about my energy level and ability to get my work done (in addition to getting my house together to sell), I would appreciate it.

Saturday Siiiiiigh….

Doing stuff for work seven days a week and all of the work-related stresses are getting very, very old.

Blessed to have a job, but being treated like a robot isn’t a nice feeling.

Exhausted, and trusting God will answer my prayers and provide for my requests.

Sunday Song

Psalm 46:1
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.

Lamentations 3:22-26
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”
The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.

I sincerely need this song right now.

That’s all I can say.

Checking in…

Hey…been a weird few weeks: I had a stubborn sinus thing and then my shoulder had some kind of weird strain/pulled muscle thing that took a week to get over…three weeks of yucky.  Sorry that posting has been so infrequent.  Even my planned Proverbs study kind of stopped at Proverbs 4.  Truth be told, work has been crazy.  The prospect of selling my house and moving is the only thing keeping me sane, to be honest.

I also haven’t felt like writing much, in fact, this is the first day in well over a week that I’ve even fired up the laptop.  Work has me coming home and vegging out.  Too many changes, mandates that make absolutely no educational sense…not planned out well, either, and well, winter hibernation, I guess.

Writing will begin again, soon.  It is the end of the marking period, and over the next three days, I need to grade 100 essays, 150 other regular assignments that require just about as much brain power as the essays.  Then, I can keep on top of things as the marking period ends in a week.

Hope you all are having a good week.  🙂