As many of you know, I’ve had chronic pain issues for the past five years. When I lag behind or let others go up or down stairs before me, I usually just say I’m a gimp and leave it at that. But in reality, that’s as fast as I go and the stairs are a challenge at times. This is because my right leg has had little feeling in the calf, painful tingling in the toes, and an achilles tendon that tightens up so much that it feels like it is going to snap with the next step. Of course, it hasn’t and likely never will…just feels that way. I have nerve damage from the health problems that converged almost six years ago.
Well, this past week I noticed something in my walking: I’m faster. Also, when I went up the stairs at work the other day, I was able to do it without feeling like my right leg had no strength (comparably speaking).
The best thing happened this morning, though. I was laying in bed, kind of praying…bad week…needed prayer. At one point in my prayer, I muttered, “It would be nice to not be in pain all of the time.” I was especially referring to the achilles. It is the first thing I “feel” when I wake up. A few minutes later, I noticed that my toes weren’t tingling as much, as if someone had uncinched a hose (can’t think of how else to explain it). Then, I realized my achilles wasn’t hurting and that my calf had more sensation when I touched it.
I went back to sleep, and when I woke up, everything was still “good”. I still have some lack of feeling in the two toes that I’ve had problems with, and the calf is only partly “alive”; however, the achilles is the most noticeably changed.
Please pray that this continues and that it encourages me. I compensate a lot and work hard to not really let on how much pain I’m in, so that I can just live my life. (My trainer knows, don’t worry.)
See…in all of this silence that I’ve been experiencing, God has sent me some encouragement. I know He hears my prayers, and He is faithful, loyal, patient, and good.